in my head…to Asia and back

08 Mar in my head…to Asia and back


I recently took a little trip outside the country. There were a bunch of fantastic things I experienced, like climbing a waterfall or eating extremely cheap food off the street. The part that affects me the most though, is what my brain does while I am away from home.

It’s weird. You go to have fun, right? I went for a bonding experience. What I came back with was a crossed off “bucket list” of experiences, a refreshed relationship with Mom, and a bit of a new take on life. I know I know, I have these a lot.

I truly appreciate what I have. Not because I saw what some don’t have, like people sleeping on the streets and living in shacks, or a way of life different from mine. But because I saw what I do have and what I get to be grateful to come home to. This isn’t intended to be a list of all the cool shit I have accumulated over the past few years. I already wrote about the list I found with ten goals on it from three years ago and how I checked off nine of them. It’s intended to be a list for great people in my life, the family I am blessed to come home to, and the work I get to do and love.

I don’t have a ton of money or a ton of material stuff. A little compared to where I just visited but in relation to here, I got just a bit. What I do have is a family I missed very dearly when I was gone and by day three I couldn’t wait to get home to. I missed my screenplay I had worked on so hard to finish the week before I left, that I couldn’t wait to get back to work on it. I missed my conversations with the few people I converse with every day. These things that drive me as a human. Things that make me feel accomplished and make me feel like I am contributing in some sort of way. Sometimes I wonder if I like coming home from a vacation more than I like going on one.

I love my home. So much, that I question if ever every want to leave it for more than a few days at a time. I think it’s because I have worked so damn hard to get where I have gotten that all I wanna do is be in this place, this place of tranquility of the mind. I mean I seriously get anxiety if I go away for too long. I actually like to worry that the world might stop if I don’t get back soon to help it out. Now that is some crazy shit, so stupid! Who am I?

I do get home with a new drive, a new passion for success, a refresh course in life, and a wake-up call.

I wanna give a shout out to the one person I do owe for my start to this whole movie thing. He knows who he is, CDM.

And I missed SportsCenter and Baseball.






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